When Thomas and I left the house church, we were sent to the regional headquarters for me to join the graphic design team.

Since we had essentially been banished there, my demeanor was different from before.

Where I used to chat with everyone, now I just wanted to hide.

I would go up to the “tech room” and quietly do my work without talking to anyone.

Behind the scenes, Thomas and I continued to have vicious fights. It was just another sin I was hiding.

I felt like I was evil, a secret demon. I worked as hard as I could to try to erase that feeling, but it only ever got stronger.