Hello! I’m Luca, a former WMSCOG member, and this website is the home for never again, my story about spending a decade in the World Mission Society Church of God with untreated mental illness.
Each chapter contains a written narrative and an audio file that you can also listen to if you prefer. Click here for a full listing of chapters. You can also listen through the entire story in chronological order using this site’s audio player or on Spotify.
This story is incomplete and continuously updating. If you want to be in the loop, follow me on Instagram to read the stories as soon as they post.
Don’t know where to start? How about at the beginning:
chapter one: the hook
Never again will I let my freedom be stolen from me.
Never again will I betray my values.
Never again will I lose my sense of self.
latest chapters
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queerness
My first relationship when I was fifteen was with a girl. At the time, I did not identify as a lesbian because I didn’t know whether I had a preference for females or not. I simply loved my girlfriend regardless of her gender. But I knew that I felt strongly that all forms of love…
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reconciliation
After leaving the cult, in addition to cooking, I also had great difficulty taking care of my child. Again, taking care of kids was one of the prescribed activities for women in the church and I felt allergic to it.
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complex trauma & cptsd
The following is an excerpt from Dr. Laura E Anderson’s book, When Religion Hurts You, where she identifies high control religions (HCRs) as potential sources of complex trauma.
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thought-stopping
Dr. Steven Hassan describes “thought stopping” as a technique cult members are taught to use in cults that exert mind control.