In the months after I got back from New York, the euphoria faded, and I was given more missions—more graphic design, admin work, a team to take care of, choir, offerings, cleaning the altar.

I may have been manic when I joined the church and made irreversible mistakes as a result.

I took my first mission, preaching, very seriously while I was in New York.

The WMSCOG taught not to preach to gay people.

Thomas and I entered a secret relationship right around the time I joined the church, after I broke up with my French boyfriend.